i hate people but i love myself so who cares<3

[petalveined]

 

i’ve been blurry w lana and guys for hours but who cares ! here we go. rant/vent/life post etc. 
these past few days have been. pretty good i guess! people are so cool. nice. thank god because i deserve it. i deserve so much better than i've even had before (and yes. self love IS the best love) because you can't really count on people. as a famous queen once said "boys are just placeholders, they come and they go" but. people are like that in general. (but especially boys - can't deny it) people know how to use you when they need to, be awful when they want to, be a dirty shitty victim when they need to.. oh my god i'm such a hater... twirl hair etc. and yes i'm a hater. sadly my pain turns into hate and it's definitely annoying ....taking the time to get mad at people is a complete waste of time. but i guess accepting it makes me surprisingly more stylish than them. so i guess saying it here is partly being better than them. i'm not talking about the other students. people at school are pretty cool as i said. not too pushy (for the most of them) and they don't ask too many questions. except for some. but the others amuse my daily life a bit, so that's always good to take. speaking of other students, two very cool n pretty girls came up to me and told me that i have a so much style. they don't know that i'm not even at my best rn. because damn it's cold and rainy. but i admit that i've started taking better care of myself, because i deserve it. yes, i've realized that i deserve a lot of things that i don't really have. if people can't give it to you then do it yourself. people are useless</3 they can at least boost my ego. oh my god i must sound so self-centered.. and that's good. everyone needs to be a little ✨narcissistic✨ sometimes. or at least to love and compliment themselves. even more if they are surrounded by losers. and being self-centered is honestly something less worse than being an attention seeker, a liar, a manipulator and so on...
duh. honestly i lied, i won't vent or rant. simply because it's not worth it and the lives of these people are rotten enough for me to add some shit to it. i am so much better than them. (i don't think the others would agree with me) but i think it made them neglectful of themselves, and terribly naive. luckily for us, those days are over ♥️ i eat salmon w pasta, i drink my favorite drink and i talk to the people i love. i may also be a girlfailure who thinks she's a girlboss. but i have a job so idrc about that rn. (almost.)